letter to my addiction!!

Addiction
To my dearest friend,
I don’t know how to say this but I got to let you go. You have been here for me for many years. But you see, I have a daughter now and a real life. I have a good life. God has been a bigger and better friend to me than you can ever be. I think it is time to make God and my family the first priority in my life. You were there to get me through the hard times. When my father was on drugs. When I felt lonely. When I was sad. When I hurt. You were there. Because you have always been there to take away the pain and heart ache I felt like I should never turn my back on you. I love you and I have loved you for a long time. But you know there is a time for everything. I feel like you have been very selfish you have taken all my time. Since I have allowed you back in my life I have tried to defend you but.. Its painfully obvious that your not a good friend. You are to needy and clingy. I have to report to you everyday. Then once I report to you then you call me back 30 min later wanting me to pick you up again. I cant take you in public or you will get me in trouble. I cant tell anyone about you because then I will be judged and the whole world will wonder why im friends with you. im sorry your not my friend and I actually hate you I don’t love you I despise you. I wont let you control me any more. You have abused my soul so many times and I keep letting you back in my life over and over. Well no more back sliding no more in and out of my life. People said the you were something that I could use… something I could go back and forth to… they said you wouldn’t hurt me…. Now look, you have poisoned me, my mind, my eyes are red and my head is cloudy. You’re not my friend God didn’t send you. Im going to have to leave you with Satan. that’s why today im having a funeral for you and im telling you bye I will never see you again. Its obvious you will never change and so that is why I have to change. I have given you so many chances saying this time will be different. This time you wont control me. This time I will only see you on the weekends. But now I see you will never change. You’re a bully you want all of me you don’t want to share me. If I don’t let you go today once and for all bad things can happen to me. Also I have realized I don’t need you. God has given me everything I need to make it. Now its up to me to make it. So me and you are breaking up and I no longer want to be friends with you. So today I cut you off. I start by cutting off your roots and I end at the head of your sweet little torso. And your gone done forever, bye.. When you see me no need to speak, I hope to never see your face again or smell your presents but the truth is I know I will, but the next time, I wont speak to you. I will avoid you and never look u in the eye again. I will never give you respect again. You are not what that is. You are what that was. You belong to Satan now. And I belong to God so have a nice life without me because I close the chapter.